Monday, February 18, 2008
- 1:27 PM
After having them not be here for a while I've started to realize what was me and what was them.
And I've come to realize that a lot of my flaws that I had attributed to them were in fact all mine. They were probably more pronounced because of them but they still originated from me. If I'm a bad person I can't blame it on them anymore. And I don't like that.
And all these things that I thought they felt, it turns out I've been feeling them too...but how do I deal with these things without them to help? I don't know how to. Its hard.
I've got to do this all by myself.
But yes, I've finally realized that I'm not alone.
At least I have you.
And I'm doing a lot better than before.
I can't give up and I can't lose sight of the truth, even if that might be hard sometimes. I can do this, and I've got you to help me.
I need to keep hope.