- 7:32 AM I did it, Drayc.
I finally told about you.
Perhaps not directly, but well enough.
Interesting, don't you think?
Perhaps, I am not as crazy as I might think?
We'll see Drayc, we'll see.
I know you understand this, at least.

And I'd like to think you at least feel bad about it.

- 6:57 PM Why is it, Drayc
Everytime I attempt a picture of us
It goes unfinished?
Is no one ever to know of the two of us?
Or is it because we ourselves, were left
Unfinished.

- 3:28 PM Today was the first time I've EVER done anything with the intent only to hurt you
Its a shame that it came to this,
but what's done is done
regrets are useless.

- 7:15 PM I never thought I'd feel like this again.
I couldn't stop...I swore I would but I didn't.
I thought...I thought I could never do it
I would never be pure
I thought, I should just end it.
But then, how could I think that?
What in my mind brought that on?
Don't worry about me.

- 6:46 PM

- 5:23 PM I'm searching for an angel
Desperatly hoping she will bring me closer
to purity,
perfection,
Heaven.
The search consumes me
desperation infects my hope
all I would need is her
secretly I long to be pure and innocent, I long to be suitable for her
I wish I could come clean but I know that will never be
I pray and pray to find her
but she always slips from my view.

once, I believed I found her
but she and I can never be...
my heart calls out to her
breaking, even now
but my angel's picture burns to ashes
and I choke upon the fumes
if I could get her back I swear it would be the end of my search.