Friday, December 15, 2006
- 1:07 PM
Blinded, Silenced, Bound
One will not forget
The consequences of such actions
With a single seal
Spread through the Soul
The Heart
That self, and my self,
I bid them to part
The past won’t be forgotten
It shall never be repeated
Unbind yourself and realize Freedom
Find your voice and speek the Truth
Open your eyes and see with Clarity
At this moment your chains will be broken
A deal sealed in blood
A chant that is spoken
Be Free from its grasp
In your soul is the token
Now bind up the spirit
That has taken you down
With the fresh and Pure pain
I bid you, free again.
Monday, December 04, 2006
- 5:33 AM
I think, the thing is, that I lived with you in that world for so long. And when I was banished, I forgot it all. But when I remembered...the homesickness was far too great to bear. Now, though, I have accepted that I cannot return there, to you. I can't go back, Drayc.
But it does not hurt me anymore. I've gotten past the initial pain, and now I can look back at that time with some sort of happy nostalgia. I can look back and
smile. Now, could I honestly have done that when I first began to remember? No, no I would have thought about it with such longing, I would have begged to return, I would have cried.
Now, can't you see the improvement?
You know, Drayc, I can't let the past continue to hold me back. I can't let my fear of it happening again stop me from trying...
I can't be afraid of it anymore.
And I guess that's easy to say now, in this room with white morning light pouring in off the snow outside, but, I will work hard towards getting back to who I was before. Before all of this pain happened.
I'm going to change, you'll see.