- 4:53 PM I can't figure it out
Part of me hates you
it wants me to ask
"what the fuck do you think you're doing?"

But that part isn't me
I don't hate you

But I don't understand

How does this work?
And why don't you love me?
And, why, do you love her?

And I know you tell me you still do love me
But how does this work?

And why are you taking so long to realize that you just want to leave me?

- 8:14 AM I'm scared
I'm terrified
But I'm scared to tell you that
It's happening again
And I thought maybe it would be different this time?

How could I not have seen this coming?

I don't ever want you to go
please

Please don't do this.

- 5:10 PM What I desperatly wish for
Is someone who I trust so absolutley much
That I am never afraid that they'll leave me for a sexual person
Someone I could just cling to and cry and cry for no reason
Other than because I am so glad to have them there

She doesn't know my biggest fantasy about her
Would be just to hold her so tightly
That we'd never be apart.
Just to be able to hold her hand
Would be almost too much happiness for me to bear
And all I want to do is repeat
"I love you, I love you, I love you"
Until I have no breath left.

I have never even met you
And yet you already mean so close to everything to me.