- 12:01 AM I'm so many people
I'm all of You
but also me.
God how I've missed you.
I want you to come back, but for whatever reason am too afraid to try
(could it be because the last time I tried, that was when I lost you?)
Kemu, Himmel, you've popped up now and then
Youkai is finally happy, I know who she's with and I love Him. I love Him so much.
I want you all back in my head.
Because I know, I just know.
That's what I want.

- 11:20 PM I know what I need to do now.
Well, not really, but in a way.
I know how badly I need (or is it want?) to use someone.
To get into a frivolous relationship, have its ups and downs like a roller coaster, cry and obsess just like I used to.
But now things are different.
I realize how wrong it is.
Wrong to lead a girl on, tell her I like her or at least make her think that when I honestly don't
Wrong to let myself get cheat on again,
and perhaps even more wrong to not care when it happens
I want to pretend I'm feeling something that I'm not so sure I can anymore.

And once again my bothersome convictions come up to me and tell me that its not an honourable thing to do.
At this point, I think I've got no choice but to listen to them.

You hear me? Blasted things.
Don't worry, I won't do anything rash.