- 1:04 PM I did a kind of ritual this morning.
And now I feel a whole lot better.
I'm fully aware, I know that you don't want to hurt me, and that you aren't going to. This is something that you want to do because you love me. And that is the same reason, I'll admit, that I do want to do that with you as well.
But I know, that I will probably be scared still, even with this knowledge. It is a huge possibility. But, hopefully I will be able to overcome this fear with you.
It is not wrong of me to want this from you, and it does not mean that I want to hurt you.
It's time to stop denying that.

No, I'm not ready yet, but I just wanted to let you know that.