- 5:28 PM I don't know if I'll bother with the note.
Somehow it doesn't seem good enough anymore.

I'm sorry, please don't be mad at me.
But if I stood by and did nothing I would have nothing but contempt for myself.
I realize that there are some things I can't change.
But God means nothing.
I can do more than you think.

I just need to know how.
I need to focus more.

And I know dying is the most selfish thing I could do,
but I never claimed to be a selfless person
not even once
Maybe that will give you some motivation to look after yourself.

I hate how I can't make you realize how beautiful you are.
If I could, maybe I would be worth something.

But I'm not going to give up.