- 3:33 AM I wonder if you even know what you're getting youself into.
Watch what you say and what you promise, because I will cling to those words like the world is ending. I'll actually believe you. I wonder if you're even aware of what you're doing. When you go like she says you're going to go, I will use those words against you. I'll tell you what you said and you'll tell me "they're only words." But words are not only words.
Forever means forever
Oh God, please don't go after reading that. Please.
I don't want to trap you with your words, but what else can I do?

I'm so fucking useless. I can do absolutely nothing at all. There's no reason you'd want to stay. So my only hope is to do whatever I can to make you love me so much that you won't be able to go. This is the only thing I can do.
One day you'll realize I can't really do anything and then no matter what I've done, it won't matter.
I want to do everything, be everything for you. And I believed that I could, I really did. But I know you would not want me to think that. And seeing as I've not accomplished anything thus far, its logical to assume that I'm useless no matter what I believe.

I'm so sorry to bring all of this up again. Just after it looked like I'd clued in, right?
Please, don't get me wrong, I believe you. I believe you, but she says I shouldn't. She keeps telling me you'll leave and I keep telling her you won't. And I know, logically, you won't. But fear is irrational and she won't listen to a word I say.

I'm so, so sorry.