Thursday, June 05, 2008
- 5:19 PM
You said that we couldn't get officially married until after we both had our carreers and everything. But that could take a long time, with schooling and all. And, you said before, that we could get married when you were 21.
It's making me really nervous. Do you remember why I said I was afraid to begin with? That didn't help. To me it sounded just like you didn't want to...so that it would be easier to leave me, once you decided I wasn't good enough.
It's not like I'm going to take you for granted. I'm not going to stop trying, obviously. It's not like you mean nothing to me.
But now I'm scared again. Do you understand that I
can't be with anyone but you? After what I've given you, it's not possible. And that was part of why I was scared in the first place, but...you said you weren't going to leave, and I believed you. And I let you do that because I trust you, and I trusted that you wouldn't leave even though we're not legally married. but now you're putting it off, and I can't help but be scared again.